BLUE !DEAS

i didn’t know what happened but i missed the train. might have been too sluggish while i was on my way to the station. might be a little late? or maybe i missed it with clear intentions.

this is not the first time. it happens all the time. we fumble everyday, fall flat on face but it is not the end of everything. You miss some chances day in day out but these are matters of choices we have to make.

i may have missed the train, saw it pass by, but hey, another train is on it’s way. i thought i wasn’t ready to get on and ride it, i’ve been dreaming to ride that train for months, even talking to myself that one day.. i’ll be on that train.. next year, you’ll be my train.

the truth? i hesitated. i didn’t know what struck me that time, got scared maybe? everything just happened so fast, my mind was flying then, and after a couple of seconds, there the train goes.. leaving and moving away without me inside it.

then a sigh of relief followed. the thought says.. good. i wouldn’t have to worry much anymore. that hesitation liberated me in some way. it means that i’m in control.. it means that i’m thinking again, it means that yes, the EQ is working like it used to.

sabihin ko na lang. sayang. sayang because i let my dream train just pass by. but one thing i’m sure of, the train left a god damned good looking passenger 

i may have missed the train, but it doesn’t mean that it’s the last train. i’ll wait for the next one.. i call it patience.

and what if it’s the last train? my answer? there’s a cab, there’s the bus.. and there’s Henyetah.. i have heaps of options. not to forget walking as the last pick.

in life there’s always an option, we just have to make the right decisions. it makes us who we are.

and i made the right decision, let the first train pass by, ride the next one..

*choke* *choke*

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