BLUE !DEAS

I can’t help but worry and think. Pinanganak yata akong praning lols, or is it because it’s my personality, that i think a lot. Ibig bang sabihin nun matalino ako.. hehehe. So there.. every issue that passes me by i just can’t stop but to analyze and think.. tulad ng mga kung ano ano..

Ano ano sa mga relasyon:
January was a sad month.. i didn’t cry a river though… pero umiyak din. It was one of my lowest pagdating sa mga relasyon but then i realized that there’s no other way but to move on. Eh ano ngayon kung ayaw na nya sa akin? At least i tried saving the relationship, i did my part and hell.. i was really pushing it. You keep banging your head until it bleeds and then you realize… yes.. suffering is optional (gasgas na linya ko na ito actually ). Then you wake up, as if nothing had happened. Kunyari di kayo nagmurahan, kunyari di ka naging bitter and kunyari di ka nasaktan. You learn to ignore things, you start to ignore the past as if that someone never walked this earth, and then you’d think.. life is simple so why start complicating it? Buti pa ang mga langgam.. walang problema masyado.. Sana naging langgam na lang ako.. :rotfl:

That ends another chapter. Then you begin working on another one. This time you are more aware.. kaya alam mo na.. you tend to limit things.. you start to put a borderline… bawal tumawid.. nakakamatay! (ala MMDA)… More vigilant kumbaga.. no more Mr. All-Mine-To-Give.. nek nek nyo… :bop: . Nah… if there’s one thing i learned from relationships.. it is loving someone without having to think of other people. It is something everyone should do.. loving someone and being loved is such an experience we shouldn’t just ignore. If you love someone.. tell them (them == as in marami) how you feel. Baka bukas maging abo na lang sya.. sayang naman, di mo nasabi ang nararamdaman mo. Nevermind the after effects.. never mind the pain it will cause you… don’t regret the sacrifices you’ve made.. kasama naman yan eh.. Ang importante.. nagmahal ka.. ang masama.. ay kung ikaw lang ang nagmahal. Emo alert! Emo Alert! :glee:

Ano ano sa trabaho:
This end of march culminates my 5th month on this company. Call me a pessimist but i’d like to think that this will be the last month of my stay in this company. It’s not because i did not perform, and it’s not because i was useless. Wala naisip ko lang. When it comes to work.. well.. modesty aside, i did deliver everything that was required.. i even provided better results which was not expected, though my first month in this company wasn’t.. uhh… something that i can be proud of. Laging late.. inaantok lagi.. a couple of absences and yes more on petiks.. wahaha. Results wise… panis! Jusme.. parang tinanong mo si Erap kung ano spelling ng FUSCHIA..

Kidding aside… i’ve really adjusted well with this company. Di na ako suplado mode… natuto na akong mag-hi at mag hello.. hehehe. I’ve made friends already at may crush na rin ako.. haha (antanda na nagkaka-crush pa..). So there… next time ko na lang i kwento ung crush ko… :daydream:

Ano ano sa trabaho sa labas ng opisina:
Adik sa trabaho? Only a few people know that i do freelance as well.. so aside from my regular office job.. i have another work that i attend at home. It’s a home based job depending on the tasks required by my Boss. I maintain an Apparel Website based in the US. I’ve been working on this since last year. Loser? ako? nah… it helps me pay the bills.. and had been a big help on preventing yours truly from committing suicide.. lols. You would think that my social life is dead. Di rin. I make sure that i get some every now and then. Every weekend yata. :whistle:

Minsan sinasabi na lang ng mga officemates ko.. “Oh ang aga umuwi ah!” .. it’s because i still have work at home… para makarami at makatulog ng maaga. Minsan naman nagyayaya sila magbasketball after office.. ang pamatay kong sagot.. “May raket pa eh.”.. but the truth behind it.. di ako marunong nyan… War Craft na lang gusto nyo? lols. Well ung “raket” excuse is half true.. i do have a work to finish at home, and time is very essential as my Boss is expecting me to deliver at a given deadline, and if i don’t? I won’t get to pay my bills on time. Besides, i can’t even drag myself to enroll in a Gym Class… magbasketball pa kaya?

ayan.. madami pa sanang ano ano.. but it’s almost lunch time so i gotta go. I hope you got to think of your ano ano as well… madami pa akong ano ano.. ung mga nang-aano, ung mga ina-ano ko… at ung mga balak ko pang anuhin sa mga susunod na araw… ikaw.. kung gusto mo mag-anuhan tayo.. aanuhin mo ako.. tas anuhin mo rin ako.. :naughty:

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