BLUE !DEAS

Damn! I was really pissed this morning because of that FX driver who refused to drop me off at a certain point near the office. I was dead late… and fuck.. now, i’m more late than usual because of that wretched dumb-ass idiot.

Di naman ako galit nyan.. . I just realized that i have a tendency to attract fights because of my hotheadedness… usually kasi pag umaga mainit ang ulo ko, mainitin ang ulo ko.. lalo na pag masama gising ko… mas lalo na pag late na ko.. haha .. a perfect morning isn’t hard to ask… why can’t some people just give me one?

On with the story. So there.. i asked the driver to drop me off somewhere..

“Boss! sa may *** lang” potah… dumirecho lang.. so i shouted

“Ma! Para na lang po sa tabi!” I shouted in a subtle manner in case he didn’t hear my first call… he was saying something i didn’t understand.. ‘tas inulit n’ya..

“Ser, dun na lang po sa kabila kasi baka makaistorbo po tayo!”

Ayun naman pala.. baka daw maka-istorbo ang kumag… to think na ‘yun naman talaga ang drop off point ng mga pasahero at mga estudyante sa area na yun… eh teka.. sino naman ang maiistorbo dun, eh wala namang ibang nagbaba dun that time… so i told him.. in a louder voice..

“Pwede naman dun ah!”

sabi nya, “baka po makaistorbo tayo..”

sabi ko, “Sinabi nang pwede dun eh!” Potah naman oh, pero ‘yung mura.. medyo pabulong na lang.. haha.. baka mabugbog pa ako.. sayang naman ung ligo ko..

The real reason why he refused to stop because he was beating the red light.. sayang nga naman.. kesa maghintay s’ya sa traffic. But my point is… he mustn’t sacrifice the need of his “pasahero’s” to satisfy his needs… sa kanila ka kumikita.. siguro konting tolerance naman.

This situation has happened to me for like how many times already.. puro FX drivers.. iba iba ang rason… “Hindi ka naman pumara eh, wala akong narinig… baka mahuli tayo.. hindi po ako nag-almusal, mahal ang kamatis” daming rason at para lang may mairason… eh di pa ba rason na mahuhuli ka dahil colorum ka? Sa tingin ko masyadong mayayabang ang mga FX na yan..

Ang alam lang nila kumita.. some drivers/owners doesn’t even give a damn kung may aircon pa ba ang mga FX nila… kahit malulunod ka na sa pawis.. tuloy ang negosyo… buset!

Then i realized.. medyo sa malayo na nya ako naibaba.. huwaw! Late na nga.. napalayo pa.. ayun late nga.. hehe.

I really need to control my anger especially when all my usual expectations to other people are not delivered. Masama ito… i think i need a vacation. Pero usually sa umaga lang mainitin ang ulo ko… the rest of the day.. i’m ok.. i’m more tolerant and submissive pagdating sa mga ganyang argument.. ‘wag lang pag bagong gising at lasheng!

But i still think i’m ok! so far.